
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
these 2 days, made a new fren(Huimin). she this person veri gd, my perfect listener... she can listen all the way w/o makin a noise and yet feel the way i do... she realli can b my close fren...hehe...
wel... finally called her last night juz b4 she slept... today woke up oso saw her online... quite hapi though... though its juz fo a few seconds, i was kinda satisfied... its a step forward for us to become frens...
waiting for viv to cal mi again... tat crazi little cute and noisy girl... makes my life alot more interesting... she always hav tat natural cuteness in her... nv fail to make my day too... hehe... glad tat nowadays all is wel in her life beta than she always lookin down on life...
aft so long, finally woke up frm my hurt... wanna find a different life, though i dunno where to start frm but then i muz start finding... jerelyn was like tryin to make mi wake up, i didnt listen initially but then finally think thru n woken up liao... hehe...
for now, think all is working out for mi... ENJOY life is the best now...
posted at Tuesday, February 28, 2006... bye...
Monday, February 27, 2006
has been days since i tok 2 her liao... giving both of us time to like cool down cuz i realli dun wanna irrtate her further... for now realli juz wanna b frens, pure normal frens... everytime tok 2 her, it seems like she is veri weary of mi, like i gonna lie/bluff/hurt her like tat... i dunno lah...
these few days lucky gt frens by my side... haha... damn fortunate to hav frens standing there wif mi... Vivian has been feelin down n i am tryin to help her stand on her feet again... noe she havin lots of probs n i wanna b tat person whu stand by her all the way, wanna take care of her all the way too... 1 wk then hav an answer... i will wait... even if she say muz wait 4 1 yr, i wil wait...
tryin to find ppl go for DXO event on the 11 March... now gt abt 10le... haha hope 2 get more...
posted at Monday, February 27, 2006... bye...
Saturday, February 25, 2006
lies lies... all lies... no 1 i can trust anymore in this world... make ppl full of promises, all the yes yes n yes then last min they say cannot make it, say no... dun they even respect ppl's time n effort to even make time out for them? they dun even consider tat...
NOT GONNA TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE!! THIS WORLD HAS NO TRUST!!!
posted at Saturday, February 25, 2006... bye...
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
as i was damn down last night due to wat i read, i felt so lonely, but i called Karen n Shimin n "borrowed" 5min frm them... hehe... thks pals... they tok 2 mi on how i shld juz 4gt abt a gal like tat n it nt worth it... they say the heartache is nt becuz i still hav feelings but its juz tat i'm nt used to nt havin mich ard mi... issit so? i asked myself.. but chose to trust them cuz they hav been wif mi thruout this issue i wld say n they shld b able to see things clearly...
i invited Karen for the party at DXO n she said she wld most prob b there...(hopefully in her lingerie) hehehehehehe... i didnt invited Shimin yet as she said she dun wanna think of enjoyment yet but her exams shld cum 1st... cuz we already hav plans to go MOS next fri... any1 wanna join mi? hehe...
met up wif my fren (Wen Bing) last night at heartland mall... he was my sec sch fren.. wah so long nv see him or at least for a few months cuz he oso study in NP IT but yr 3 liao...
we went to the coffee shop there eat Mee Pok... wanted to give him a treat but he insisted in payin mi back... hehe... wel... i was supposed to take the macromedia disc frm him tat y we met up oso... we chatted abt our gfs, past n present... how we both treat our gf, how our relationship were, how they behave, wat romantic things we do... ya... so fun to hav a old fren there tokin but such stuffs... he said 1 thing abt relationship tat is damn true... he said "IN A RELATIONSHIP, ANY MISTAKES CAN B TOLERATED BUT BEING UNLOYAL IS THE UNFORGIVEABLE" i think so and totally agree... not becuz i juz been thru this but becuz in a relationship this is realli one of the worse attitude or behavior a bf, gf shld hav...
we tok til ard 1130pm hen left cuz scared ltr he no bus go home, then i went to meet david at MAC's but then he left liao... he was studyin there then asked mi go find him to go back together...
came home, then installed my Macromedia... so cool.. finally can Flash Flash n Flash.. hehe...
waited for ard 115 am aft her working hours then called her, her phone gt prob, cant hear mi at all... haiz... called her again at abt 215am... she's at home bathin, her bro answered... said wld ask her cal back.. waited but to no avail...
waited for the match between Arsenal n Real Madrid to kick off... wel... fell asleep at half-time... by the time i woke up again, it was like 6am... check the teletext, saw the scoreline 1-0 Arsenal won... hehe... David muz b damn bloody hapi lor...
STILL MISSING N WAITING FOR YOU, SEAGULL
posted at Wednesday, February 22, 2006... bye...
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
nuthin to do at home cuz realli sick... so was juz surfing thru webby, friendster n blogs...
bu zhi bu jue went to see her blog... read wat she wrote... aft reading, dunno y a sudden pain came into my heart... y? i dunno... juz feel pain... they r finally together tats wat she said... but according to sum, they were togther all along.. i dunno...
it like my fault, my loss... but yet again, i already goten over her... y does it still hurt? i dunno/.. realli dunno... sum1 tel mi can?
i did learn alot frm her... now i can treat my next 1 wif wat i learned rite? is it realli beta? haiz... y cant i stop thinkin abt her... y the pain juz wun go away? so frustrating n saddenin
posted at Tuesday, February 21, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsMonday, February 20, 2006
WO SHI SHEN LE!!(SOB SOB) so hard to take it, cant sing n play mi guit can juz practice solemnly...lolx
woke up at 6am today cuz of my cough... it has gotten worse again... now whenever i cough, my throat wil hav this nerve splitting pain... even my ears will oso feel the pain... haiz... so i sit up n slp aft took my medicine, drank honey water n ate cough sweets... throat is damn bad now... is it tat hard to abstain frm alcohol?
woke up again at 8plus... cant slp wel... dunno y... perspiring like a pig... cleaned up myself then go back to slp again
woke up at 10 plus again, due to the cough again.. i was like havin a heaven's dream when the cough again sent this splitting pain to my throat n ears... this time wake up cant even move my body... growin weaker each passing moment... is it cuz i nv tok to her? lolx... dun think so lah juz jk onli... haha
dragged myself to slp downstair's sofa cuz my room no fan, onli aircon n tat wld make my throat realli dry... aft like 30min, felt much beta but still cant tok n controlling my cough like mad... haiz... wat a start... how i wish, this angel wil cum frm nowhere and save mi frm this agony(shld noe whu i tokin ab rite?) lolx...
suddenly rmbed how mich treat mi when i was sick, she was so caring then... the girl of my dreams then but wats the point if tat cares onli cums when u r sick rite? i wil show the 1 i love tat my care n concern for her doesnt cum onli when she is in trouble, sick, etc but it wil b ongoin 24/7...
realli dunno wat time she wil wake up... heard things frm her tat hurts mi as it seems like a headless chicken tat is so lost n unsure of which direction she is suppossed to walk... hope tat i can b tat light of her's leading her to the path where her real happiness can b found...
posted at Monday, February 20, 2006... bye...
Sunday, February 19, 2006
woek up early today at ard 1015am... mum woke mi up ask mi go temple pray... didnt wanna go but was forced again by her... so woke up and aft chagin saw the timing abt 1045 dropped her a sms hoping 4 a reply...
nope... so juz went down to the temple for this once-in-a-year event... reached there it like WAH so mani ppl... haha... so we did all the rituals and paid membership, donations, etc... haha.. aft tat we went to the canteen for this vegetarian food... today';s food different frm normal... much nicer and suits my appetite cuz the past few years realli nt nice... haha
so aft tat went to 3rd Aunt;s house to visit her, she juz had a operation tat y nv join us over at the temple... played wif my cousins, nephews n niece.. such a fun day... drop a cal frm time to time, no ans.. muz b slpin like a pig...
went home to slp, but then mum wanna play mahjong, so she,my sis n i juz started a 3 player game.. haha... so fun, won sum $$ though... then realli went to slp liao...
woke up by mum AGAIN... went for dinner at heartland mall and oso went shoppin... wanted to buy my comics series as wel as Macromedia software... cant find... need it urgently cuz hav to do sumthin for her... haha... veri long nv use flash liao so abit shaky...
hopefully tml wenbing wil cal mi n mpass mi his disc then can install n use liao... haha... til then... left wif nuthin to do... haha...
MISSING YOU ALWAYS
posted at Sunday, February 19, 2006... bye...
Saturday, February 18, 2006
woke up at 8 plus this morning... whole body achin like nobodi's business... dunno y, mayb its last night's drinkin, mayb its the guitar... i dunno... woke my sis up too so tat she can help mi massage... haha... sori... but realli cannot make it liao... too painful
it was beta in the late morning... came online, to blog, play games, play wif my sis... haha... practiced my guitar 4 a while onli cuz of my shoulder... haiz... downloaded songs n find chords instead... nuthin to do mah...
cough non stop n oso my shoulder hurts... so went to see a doc...doc ask mi wat hav i been doin these few day, i juz told him wat i eat n drink lor then he ask mi to stop drinkin 4 1month... sianz... dun drink then wat can i do? haha...
then i receieved a cal frm her... wah!! SURPRISED MAN!!! so hapi... she tel mi say she need to shift her stuff frm bedok to holland... so i offered my help cuz she say gt alot of stuff... ahaha
went to meet her at abt 6 like tat at her place downstair... then saw her stuff, she say "alot" but like onli 8 bags full nia... too her, mayb alot lah, but as i am concern realli nuthin much though i hav an injured shoulder... i helped her out wif the bags to trsf to holland...
we r rushin 4 time as she needs to work, but on the way gt jam at the express way... its always happens whenever we r in a hurry haha... on the way we were tokin abt food, clothes, lifestyle... she said i last night gt say sumthin to her but she refused to tel mi wat it is... i oso cant rmb... dunno whether gt offend her anot leh... ask her she say dun hav...
suddenly she say she feel like eating cuz she hungry... wah i super hapi... she finally wanna eat liao... aft 2 days of starvation, she finally wants food... she wans to eat Pizza Hut's Drumlets... cant think of anywhere... so i went to hougang mall to find, they say out of stock already...(kinda funni n puzzled y they dun hav)... went to hougang plaza then there dun hav Pizza Hut so went straight to Kovan Heartland mall... Finally get to buy the Drumlets... haha
aft tat wanna send there straight... kana jam again at Geylang area... but its ok... she msged mi again... she say whether i got buy more anot cuz she suddenly feel super hungry... i was damn hapi still haha... i did buy more... she at 1st say she onli wanted 6 but i bought her 20 pieces...
today nt bad leh... the time we spend, conversation we had were the longest ever since we knew each other...
aft sending it over to her, i went off to hav my dinner too... though alone but was satisfied...
suddenly i found out tat my wallet lost.. dunno where i put it.. cal her then she say dun hav nt in the plastic bag, tried to trace back all the way frm where i walked... then i called SBS n they say they wil check... they called mi 20min ltr n said they found it.. its was on the bus tat is at Harborfront... haha... muz hav left it in the bus on my way there... luckily i had sum cash n my ezlink wif mi... the reason is becuz i juz now took cash out to top up my ezlink n lazy to put back in my wallet tat y i left it in my pocket...
yah... so tmr wil b gg harborfront to collect my stuff... haha... far but since gt NEL, shldnt b much of a prob... stomach now still achin like crazi... wanna go slp oso cannot, eat medicine oso cannot... dunno wat to do liao... like gal havin period... lolx... mum say my face super pale but dunno wat to do oso...
ALWAYS MISSING YOU, LOVING YOU
posted at Saturday, February 18, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsFriday, February 17, 2006
as u all hav seen tat for the past weeks, my life hav always been on the downward side... though in the middle there r sum ups but it was basically down down n down... wat can i do? need a saviour...
out of job feeling actually nt tat bad... gt more time, can wake up at anytime u wan, no routine to follow, no instructions to follow haha...
woke up at 11.38am juz now, played my guitar... my fingers bleeding again... hav been playin guitar for the past weeks every night w/o fail at least muz b 2-5 hours... they r numb liao so doesnt hurt anymore, juz bleeding onli... finally practiced the song "Wo Zhen De Shou Shang Le" till near decent level... there are lots of rooms for improvement though but cant go on animore, dun wanna dirty my guitar... mayb practice ltr again when the bleeding stop...
strings oso gettin rusty, mayb gg out to get a new set of strings ltr... muz find David to go wif mi, his opinion always frank 1, so tats the best advice i can find liao...
will b gg club street again, but now no work, dunno whether shld i spend like tat... Mum recommended mi this data entry thing... paid 10cents for each entry(consist of Company's Name n Fax number onli) she hav like 1500+ contacts... when can i ever finish?
ARGH!!!! woke up now n oso knowing she is slpin.. mis her so much but dun wanna disturb her... she need her beauty slp mah... still wondering wat she is thinkin... am i too strong, too fast, or too fierce? i dunno, onli she can tel mi herself... i realli wonder whu i am to her... she did say NO COMMENTS last night though but yet, tt the worst remark any1 can ever hav, it shows, ignoring, hack care... so mani qns tat i need ans but she seems so mysterious n hard to find out... I NEED TO WORK HARDER!!!
FIND A JOB, FIND MY HEART, FIND MYSELF... tats my plans for now
posted at Friday, February 17, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsThursday, February 16, 2006
went dinner wif Mum at 6plus then aft tat we came home straight, i immediately started paskin all the stuffs n prepared for the night...
a cal came frm lynn and she said tat David wanna go drinking, so i met David, took a cab to Boon Keng to meet lynn... i oso had to collect the flowers frm lynn tat i ordered frm her tat was meant for Jojo...
met her at the Mac's near her place... she was wif a fren... then David says wanna draw $$, so i accompanied him to do so... then i realised one thing, i 4gt to damn bloody shave, haiz... so went to 7-11 to buy those disposable type i think, it was kinda cheap... haha...
went back to Mac's n i went to shave, damn worried sum1 wld juz come into the toilet n see mi shaving... tat wld b damn embarrasing...
we sat ard 4 a while waiting for lynn to finish her food then we went down to Club Street...
we were there early, so i went to put my flowers n present for Jojo at the 7-11 near her workplace becuz tat is the onli place tat dun close and wld oso b convenient enough for mi to give her a surprise...
david n lynn both bought ice-creams, i told them nt to as i noe tat Sugar b4 drinking will cuz tat person to either get drunk easily or Diabetes... saw Eric when we arrive, he said the exact same thing when he saw them eating ice cream...
esther came out oso n said hi(those 2 haven finish their ice cream so we decided nt to go in first), David gave the rose tat Lynn gave him to Esther... wah, so sweet rite? haha
we went in then drink, play pool n cards n even tricks to disturb one another... then ard 11, lynn n david had to go... lynn hav curfew n david dun wanna go back alone as i wil b wif Jojo aft her work...
when i was alone there, Jojo came and ccompany mi, she look realli down, i tot she was still bothered by her ex as earlier in the afternoon, she actually told mi her probs she facing now wif her ex, it hurt mi deeply but i calmed down n adviced her on wat to do... but come to think of it, i felt tat its actually her family as her bro(Joe) oso had the same facial expression...
she confided in mi n think she controlled veri long liao then she cried... my heart totally melted n felt a sharp pain... how to make her stop crying, i was confused... all i can do is to try make her laugh wif her fav Hello Kitty, n Flowers tat i promised her tat i wil use "magic" to give her at Takashimaya... i told her tat since she is working, asked her to concentrate on her work 1st then talk abt things ltr as i believe tat in this world, there is no such thing as problems tat are impossible to solve...
she went to the toilet n washed her face... i went out of the pub 4 a while to chill out too and catch a breather... heard esther shouting thru the phone and then sittin there alone... MUZ B HER DAMN SICKENING BF again... she was crying veri badly so i went to console her, Eric came along and then we managaed to calm her down and get her back to work... WAT A POST VALENTINE'S NIGHT!!!
i went back n took my seat whle drinking, Jojo came back aft a while... i asked her whether is she alrite, she said she feel like biting something, there wasnt anythinthere for her to bite so i offered my arm... she bit it... OUCH!!! haha juz kiddin, it wasnt painful at all... she said she felt beta... she did but it lasted for juz 10sec i think... though it was juz tat short 10sec, i was hapi to b tat person to bring sum joy to her life even for 10secs.. i dunno y but i juz felt hapi too...
aft tat i saw her drinkin her lungs out as she serves customers, seeing her drowning her sorrows away, i too again felt hurt, i felt even worse when she vomitted...i wished i cld hav done more for her...
waited til 1 am for her to end work... we went off and she said she wanna buy sweets... PERFECT... everythin according to plan... hopefully she wil b happy aft tat...
when we reach 7-11, she chose her sweet n i paid for it n i told tat guy tat i pickin up my "package" tat i left behind... gave it to her, she didnt open it cuz she say its a respect... she said she was veri hapi... though on her face, doesnt show any hapiness, i trust tat she is realli happy and tt all tat matters...
we walked for a while then suddenly rmb tat the card tat i gav her juz now, she left it in the Pub... we went back to collect it and went off... we were on our way to go town n hav our supper when her bor called her n asked her to go home as there r sum issues... wat can i do? her stuff is definitely more important...
offered to send her back, but she refused, she said she need to b alone for a while... i noe how she felt tat therefore took a cab home... when i reach my home downstairs, i didnt wanna go back, so i went to the nearby park to sort out my tots n quieten down myself... she said she wld cal when she reach home and tat wld msg once things are settled...
waited at the park but no msg/cal... went home n called her aft tat... no ans... muz b sleepin so i juz went to slp too...cuz i noe she had a real rough n tiring night... suddenly lonliness crept up to mi again... wat can i do?
called Jeanie up as she was still online and chatted... tok to her abt wat i faced this month n wat happened... she asked mi to slow things down as too much things at 1 go wil cuz accidents to happen... i understood wat she meant but the things is tat, all hav already happened, wat to do? juz hav to carry on n accept things rite? SUM1, pls HELP MI!!!!!!!
MISSING YOU ALWAYS my SEAGULL
posted at Thursday, February 16, 2006... bye...
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
this morning woke up 745 am, i actually workin at 11am but due to wat happened 2 days ago, i went down there at 9am cuz i wanted to clarify things wif Bill, Molly n mi...
when they came in, they juz scold scold n scold... i tolerated cu zi noe they r the kind, scold already then forget it type of ppl... aft waitin for Bill for 1 hour plus, he asked mi to start work immediately... Molly was still FUMING MAD!! so Bill gave mi the day off and say tat he discuss wif Molly first then tml morning cal mi to gv mi a decision... he is oso juz waiting for Molly to cool down...
w/o this two person, i wldnt hav been where i am here today... tats y i willing to tolerate... they tel mi tat actually gt lots of complains frm colleagues n customers... am i to blame for colleagues whu cant take jokes? as for the customers, they were juz dilly dally, takin their own sweet time to decide... i merely juz gave them sum body languages tat i hav other customers to serve, like tat oso wrong? haiz... customers can b veri demanding but wat can i do?
since Bill gave mi the day off and i was veri tired too, i went home n juz rested... still deciding wat i gonna write on Jo's card... i noe she muz b slpin like a pig now... wel i can get to see her ltr so i am realli lookin forward...
posted at Wednesday, February 15, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsTuesday, February 14, 2006
went to town yesterday wif Lynn... i was gg to shop a prezzie for Jo... found this thing tat is veri special(hope she like it)... wil tel u wat it is in due time... hav been tryin to decide wat to write for her...
met Amelia aft her work yesterday for a chat... veri long nv chat wif her liao... cuz last time due to constraints so hav always been very distant frm lots of ppl, she was one of them... haha
toked to her abt our relationship life, ups n downs we had, personal life, and our perceptions abt certain things we faced... told her tat all along i admire her chararcter 1, she was so surprised... haha... we were at Coffee Bean frm 6 to abt 830 and went to Mac's to carry on our conversation till abt 11pm... told her wat happened between Mich n mi n i found out so much frm her... its like so mani ppl hav views on my relationship all along and luckily for mi, ppl can see wat was happeneing in the relationship... told her the reason y like they and i always so far n distant and she oso finally understood y... we toked abt our most romantic moments tat we do n did for our other half, so fun n exciting... wel, all those were in the past liao... time to put them away n move on, now its Jo tat i care n i love...
in the middle, received Jo's msg... she came n read my blog n was juz so caring... DAMN HAPPY AR!!!! then i asked her the question tat hav been keepin mi in doubt, i found the answer... JO, SORRY!!! i wun doubt u animore... i trust u totally, sorry...
tonight, i meeting Amelia again 4 dinner... there r things tat nt convenient to say here so i shall hav to pass but wel, we wil b having dinner... where, when how?(undecided, in other words, dun wanna spoil it for her yet) lolx...
tml night i wld b meeting Jo, i still considering how to make it special for her... feel like cooking(veri long nv cook liao) supper for her or shld i juz bring her go out eat? any suggestions? haha...
STILL MISSING YOU STRONGLY... 1AM AT 87 SEEYA THERE...
posted at Tuesday, February 14, 2006... bye...
Monday, February 13, 2006
called her at 3am this morning... she juz reached home.. how i noe? i hav my ways... juz didnt noe which home she is in... sms her tellin her tat i needed to talk to her... nt sure whether did she get my intentions rite anot... i was feeling rather down tats all
i msged my boss tat i cant report for work today cuz i am nt feeling wel... all i gt frm him is tat he says i lying and tat he wanna fire mi becuz of tat.. wat can i do? i juz hav to follow orders rite? wel... since he refused to tok to mi, i hav no choice... i talked wif Mum over the matter and she said she wld help...
Mum called mi back and said tat boss wanna see mi tml... its my off day and i hav to go back... haiz... but anyway, i dun hav programmes tml... might as wel juz waste my life n time over at workplace as i'm sure she wil b wif her "love"
i was reading blogs all night frm all my friends, friends' links... found out tat she is attached... is she lying? but i trust her... i do but wat i read n see cant b wrong too... my mind n heart now in total chaos, both tryin to surpass one another, its a hard feeling... nv felt this way ever since Mich... can any1 out there advise/help mi? juz show mi a way out of this mess...
i cant deny my feelings for her anymore, it no longer juz the looks now but oso her character tat i see but oso in the ways she does things... caring, responsible, natural characteristics of an innocent young girl... my heart beats so damn fast everytime i see her... always wanna try to hide my true feelings but think she might hav felt it cumin out strong... sumtimes, i juz afraid tat it is too strong... ADVISE NEEDED!!!
posted at Monday, February 13, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsSunday, February 12, 2006
haha... waited so long for this day liao... called her today n asked her out for a Pre-Valentine's and she said yes... cuz Valentine's she gg out wif frens... though Valentine's Day is better, the day before isn't so bad so long as i am wif her rite? haha...
aft so much work n puzzling of mind, finally a yes frm her... realli made my entire day whole again... no way wil i b lookin back n see cuz there r things tat r nv worth tat much in this life...
though i now still dunno wat my programmes are but i wil think of sumthin so tat it wld b as romantic as if she is my babe... wish mi the best ppl!!! haha
Missing You Jo...
posted at Sunday, February 12, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsSaturday, February 11, 2006
toked to Sze Min jiejie last night... tokin abt BGR, MWR, n things(censored) tat we both went thru when we were attached(she still is). tok til abt 2am this morning... had a fun time here cuz jiejie is so shy n when she say things tat r sensitive, she wil sound shy n SWEET!!! i told her tat she said those stuffs wif the feeling of FIRST LOVE!!!
in the meantime, i was oso chatting wif Joanna thru sms... she told mi she wld b home early in the morning ard 7 plus.. suddenly i felt down n emotional... was it the rejection tat was to strong? or was it juz becuz i felt tat its unsafe for her to do so? i dunno...
asked her out this sunday for midnight movie but she said she wil b wif her Best Fren drinking... so wat can i do? i'm LATE AGAIN!!!
wel.. woke up today at 7.30 am, drop her a call as she say tat she wld b home "early" in the morning... she was already asleep... haha...
went to work today and reached office ard 12.45, saw got lotsa ppl in the office and sum of them were in outside clothes. i tot tat it was customers and tat every1 wld b veri buzi. So i rushed directly into the office thinkin of serving customers... much to my amazement, they are actually frm our other branches... this is becuz there is actually a New Year Lunch for our company( I wasn't aware of it, nt tat i forgot )... we had food and buffet in the office as it was close... (SO FUN!!!)
then we had the lucky draw time where all the hampers of our suppliers wil b given to our staff's name whu are called upon... i didn't win though but i was happi for my colleagues...
then My Boss asked us to go to the lounge to gamble... find it veri funny n wierd as we are gambling in the office with our boss in uniforms... wierd rite? it was oso the 1st time i played Blackjack wif GENTING CASION's STYLE... wow... its actually more thrilling than juz the normal 1... I won sum $$ though... enough for the spendings that were cumin up in the night..
wel.. i wld b gg to Club Street Bar tonight.. i juz missed her too much. i hav to see her, i dunno wat is driving mi but i hav been finding ways n means to meet her these few days... finally tonight i can... called David to join mi at club street but he say gt housewarming so cant confirm yet... but he said he wld join mi at Pavilion though
i wld b gg to pavilion frm club street cuz there is A PARTY THERE!!!...meeting Dajun, David, david's friend Victoria n Sarah and mayb Zheng Xi there too... nt sure wat party but muz b damn nice as it is recommended by both Dajun*GODLIKE*(superb clubber)... wat in life u need when u hav a place wif, Drinks, Music n BABES(though i onli hav 1 now in my heart)!!!...
posted at Saturday, February 11, 2006... bye...
Friday, February 10, 2006
after hours of askin n questioning myself... finally gt an answer to myself... i finally found out tat actually i hav never treated her as a replacement, n hav been realli true to her... finally found out her age today oso... haha...
i cant stop thinking of her the moment i woke up today... but we r still like juz new frens... dun wanna scare her off like tat... haha... i am gg to take my time... makin sure tat she is 4 mi now..
WHEN FATE CUM, NO 1 CAN RUN!!
posted at Friday, February 10, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsTuesday, February 07, 2006
when i left sch, i started to cal my fren, close and gd... n started tellin them abt the things... i tried to keep adding jokes to make myself laugh... i laughed for like 5hours...
i grew tired of plain laughin... suddenly, the sadness all rushed back at 1 go again... i wanted to kill myself... i went to Marina Square's balcony... i was on the 6th floor and looked down.. for tat moment i realli felt tat my future lies at the end of the 6th floor...
i smsed my relatives, mum n dad, god sisters n brothers n of cuz "dear" and her new man wshin them tat for the life they wld hav when i'm gone...
in mins, i had so mani calls at 1 go... i cant answer all of those... i refused to calm down... the tutor of "dear" called and further irritated mi n ignited the fire n passion frm within tat i wld realli jump this time... he is realli lousy as a councillor... callin at wrong times n words tat he used are bad... he is juz attackin wateva i was sayin n nt tryin help solve my initial problem... aft persuasion frm 1 of my godsis, i calmed down... she said she wld let mi once again hear the voice of "dear" but onli provided i can rush home n cal her(my hp low batt) but onli for 3 min...
i rushed home instantly and called her.. i immediately calmed down... see the power of her voice? powerful rite? aft 3-5 min, i hung up the phone... i told her tat i need 1 wk to forget her or at least get use to nt having her ard... ask whether cld i juz hav 3 min of her time for 1 wk straight(is it realli so hard for sum1 whu hav done mi wrong?)
Mum came n talked to mi abt it... she was crying as she spoke... she told mi wat her first impression was of "dear" till the day we parted... everythin she said... nuthin was wrong... REALLI!!! i dun tel much abt "dear" to my mum... but yet she knows everythin... aft hearing wat she said.. made mi think again... she listed all "dear"'s strengths n flaws... n asked mi :
"IF IN THIS LIST TAT I SAID, IF THERE IS ANYTHIN TAT IS WORTH YOU DYING OVER, GO AHEAD, I WUN STOP YOU."
see wat we means when we say tat mum n dad know us best? thks MUMMY!!!
went to slp aft having short discussion wif my request wif the "male lead"
hopefully wake then ok liao...
posted at Tuesday, February 07, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsSaturday, February 04, 2006
woke up at 9 plus today... gave dear a cal but again... no answer. wat can i do to find her? realli dunno wat she doin... since nothing to do, watched tv, games and surf net... juz keep wasting my own time til i either get a cal frm dear or time for work...
working at 6pm today... sucks man.. lousy schedule!!!
Msg dear's sister today and found out sumthin. dear's phone is actually conviscated by her mum... haiz.. look at the trouble i got her into... Sorry Dear~... i wronged dear again thinking that its her whu dun wanna pick up my phone...haiz... wat can i do to help her get out of the mess she's in?
veri quiet day, preparing to do work liao... so much things on my mind but so little time to settle... time is not the onli factor, solutions to solve the problem is another... hope dear completed all her assignments liao...
had a chat wif Shimin last night over MSN... she realli enlightened mi alot... finally i saw tat actually i am nt realli as a gd bf i think i am... thks Min... rmb pals... the key of a successful relationship is 3Cs, Communication, Compromise and Concern... so easy to say but so hard to do and maintain... haiz... but for dear muz persevere.
posted at Saturday, February 04, 2006... bye...
(0) commentsThursday, February 02, 2006
goin out wif dear today... we were goin to catch the movie "I NOT STUPID TOO". supposed to meet at 4 plus 5 and hav dinner before the show. but dear suddenly called mi n said gt to meet tutor...
the show was at 6 and i arrived at Bishan J8 at 5.15. dear reached at 5.50. was expecting a happy dear but then she didnt look veri happi. she told mi tat she gt chided by the tutor over her work and claimed she nv do her work... wat a jerk... dear gave mi tat stress n unhappy look throughout the outing but wel, i gave in to her knowing it was not her fault.
after the movie, went over to my place cuz told my mum tat dear was coming to my place to wish them Happy New Year. when we gt home, parents was nt there. called up my mum and they say they coming back. as we were waiting, i saw dear stress face again. haiz... couldnt stand it liao... so i flared up at her... we quarrel again... haiz... why cant i juz contrl my temper... wanna say SORRY DEAR... I REALLY TRIED TO CONTROL MY TEMPER LIAO!!!!
as dear still got lots of work to do, i sent dear to take a cab home 20 min aft my mum reach home. dear said would call mi aft she finished her work... but then ltr she sms mi again n said tat her relatives saw us at J8 n told her mum abt it... dunno how her mum reacted... so worried, but alli can do is to wait for tml when dear call or msg mi lor...
working early tml, haiz.. gg to slp now...
posted at Thursday, February 02, 2006... bye...
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Marcus Yeo
19/11/1985
Age : 20
Area : Hougang/Paya Lebar
Family
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People whu Take Others for Granted
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