Thursday, February 16, 2006
went dinner wif Mum at 6plus then aft tat we came home straight, i immediately started paskin all the stuffs n prepared for the night...
a cal came frm lynn and she said tat David wanna go drinking, so i met David, took a cab to Boon Keng to meet lynn... i oso had to collect the flowers frm lynn tat i ordered frm her tat was meant for Jojo...
met her at the Mac's near her place... she was wif a fren... then David says wanna draw $$, so i accompanied him to do so... then i realised one thing, i 4gt to damn bloody shave, haiz... so went to 7-11 to buy those disposable type i think, it was kinda cheap... haha...
went back to Mac's n i went to shave, damn worried sum1 wld juz come into the toilet n see mi shaving... tat wld b damn embarrasing...
we sat ard 4 a while waiting for lynn to finish her food then we went down to Club Street...
we were there early, so i went to put my flowers n present for Jojo at the 7-11 near her workplace becuz tat is the onli place tat dun close and wld oso b convenient enough for mi to give her a surprise...
david n lynn both bought ice-creams, i told them nt to as i noe tat Sugar b4 drinking will cuz tat person to either get drunk easily or Diabetes... saw Eric when we arrive, he said the exact same thing when he saw them eating ice cream...
esther came out oso n said hi(those 2 haven finish their ice cream so we decided nt to go in first), David gave the rose tat Lynn gave him to Esther... wah, so sweet rite? haha
we went in then drink, play pool n cards n even tricks to disturb one another... then ard 11, lynn n david had to go... lynn hav curfew n david dun wanna go back alone as i wil b wif Jojo aft her work...
when i was alone there, Jojo came and ccompany mi, she look realli down, i tot she was still bothered by her ex as earlier in the afternoon, she actually told mi her probs she facing now wif her ex, it hurt mi deeply but i calmed down n adviced her on wat to do... but come to think of it, i felt tat its actually her family as her bro(Joe) oso had the same facial expression...
she confided in mi n think she controlled veri long liao then she cried... my heart totally melted n felt a sharp pain... how to make her stop crying, i was confused... all i can do is to try make her laugh wif her fav Hello Kitty, n Flowers tat i promised her tat i wil use "magic" to give her at Takashimaya... i told her tat since she is working, asked her to concentrate on her work 1st then talk abt things ltr as i believe tat in this world, there is no such thing as problems tat are impossible to solve...
she went to the toilet n washed her face... i went out of the pub 4 a while to chill out too and catch a breather... heard esther shouting thru the phone and then sittin there alone... MUZ B HER DAMN SICKENING BF again... she was crying veri badly so i went to console her, Eric came along and then we managaed to calm her down and get her back to work... WAT A POST VALENTINE'S NIGHT!!!
i went back n took my seat whle drinking, Jojo came back aft a while... i asked her whether is she alrite, she said she feel like biting something, there wasnt anythinthere for her to bite so i offered my arm... she bit it... OUCH!!! haha juz kiddin, it wasnt painful at all... she said she felt beta... she did but it lasted for juz 10sec i think... though it was juz tat short 10sec, i was hapi to b tat person to bring sum joy to her life even for 10secs.. i dunno y but i juz felt hapi too...
aft tat i saw her drinkin her lungs out as she serves customers, seeing her drowning her sorrows away, i too again felt hurt, i felt even worse when she vomitted...i wished i cld hav done more for her...
waited til 1 am for her to end work... we went off and she said she wanna buy sweets... PERFECT... everythin according to plan... hopefully she wil b happy aft tat...
when we reach 7-11, she chose her sweet n i paid for it n i told tat guy tat i pickin up my "package" tat i left behind... gave it to her, she didnt open it cuz she say its a respect... she said she was veri hapi... though on her face, doesnt show any hapiness, i trust tat she is realli happy and tt all tat matters...
we walked for a while then suddenly rmb tat the card tat i gav her juz now, she left it in the Pub... we went back to collect it and went off... we were on our way to go town n hav our supper when her bor called her n asked her to go home as there r sum issues... wat can i do? her stuff is definitely more important...
offered to send her back, but she refused, she said she need to b alone for a while... i noe how she felt tat therefore took a cab home... when i reach my home downstairs, i didnt wanna go back, so i went to the nearby park to sort out my tots n quieten down myself... she said she wld cal when she reach home and tat wld msg once things are settled...
waited at the park but no msg/cal... went home n called her aft tat... no ans... muz b sleepin so i juz went to slp too...cuz i noe she had a real rough n tiring night... suddenly lonliness crept up to mi again... wat can i do?
called Jeanie up as she was still online and chatted... tok to her abt wat i faced this month n wat happened... she asked mi to slow things down as too much things at 1 go wil cuz accidents to happen... i understood wat she meant but the things is tat, all hav already happened, wat to do? juz hav to carry on n accept things rite? SUM1, pls HELP MI!!!!!!!
MISSING YOU ALWAYS my SEAGULL
posted at Thursday, February 16, 2006... bye...
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