
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
when i left sch, i started to cal my fren, close and gd... n started tellin them abt the things... i tried to keep adding jokes to make myself laugh... i laughed for like 5hours...
i grew tired of plain laughin... suddenly, the sadness all rushed back at 1 go again... i wanted to kill myself... i went to Marina Square's balcony... i was on the 6th floor and looked down.. for tat moment i realli felt tat my future lies at the end of the 6th floor...
i smsed my relatives, mum n dad, god sisters n brothers n of cuz "dear" and her new man wshin them tat for the life they wld hav when i'm gone...
in mins, i had so mani calls at 1 go... i cant answer all of those... i refused to calm down... the tutor of "dear" called and further irritated mi n ignited the fire n passion frm within tat i wld realli jump this time... he is realli lousy as a councillor... callin at wrong times n words tat he used are bad... he is juz attackin wateva i was sayin n nt tryin help solve my initial problem... aft persuasion frm 1 of my godsis, i calmed down... she said she wld let mi once again hear the voice of "dear" but onli provided i can rush home n cal her(my hp low batt) but onli for 3 min...
i rushed home instantly and called her.. i immediately calmed down... see the power of her voice? powerful rite? aft 3-5 min, i hung up the phone... i told her tat i need 1 wk to forget her or at least get use to nt having her ard... ask whether cld i juz hav 3 min of her time for 1 wk straight(is it realli so hard for sum1 whu hav done mi wrong?)
Mum came n talked to mi abt it... she was crying as she spoke... she told mi wat her first impression was of "dear" till the day we parted... everythin she said... nuthin was wrong... REALLI!!! i dun tel much abt "dear" to my mum... but yet she knows everythin... aft hearing wat she said.. made mi think again... she listed all "dear"'s strengths n flaws... n asked mi :
"IF IN THIS LIST TAT I SAID, IF THERE IS ANYTHIN TAT IS WORTH YOU DYING OVER, GO AHEAD, I WUN STOP YOU."
see wat we means when we say tat mum n dad know us best? thks MUMMY!!!
went to slp aft having short discussion wif my request wif the "male lead"
hopefully wake then ok liao...
posted at Tuesday, February 07, 2006... bye...
Marcus Yeo
19/11/1985
Age : 20
Area : Hougang/Paya Lebar
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