
Sunday, May 07, 2006
went to meet Amelia ytd night to go over to her cell grp's hse... tried to keep my mind off her but then impossible... hear the tok or semon done by Bro. Collin(tts wat they cal him), didnt realli like it but felt there were veri interesting point of view in between... i felt like lots of this theories abt God were so different... or mayb juz becuz the values tt i was taught b4 werent juz like his teachings... wel.. lots of qns, loopholes, etc... but then nv voice out as, whu i am to voice out my opinion? i nt even a Christian... juz a person whu believes tt God exists and that had sum knowledge abt Him tts all...
went to Angel's hse aft tt to pass her her stuffs.. so glad to b able to finally see her again... lol... missed her so much over the past few days... had a fun n great time wif her though as we juz played n had fun tryin to help her wif her proj...
she was kinda pissed off by sum1 whu juz wasnt sensitive enough to her feelings... Control freak wld b wat i wld cal him... go where, wif whu, when go home, etc... all muz report to him... wat a creep!!! wif Love, cums freedom n the ability to release the person so as the person u luv can find her happiness in you and fly rite back to your arms... this was 1 thing i learnt frm when wif Mich n now i can see how impt tt means to any1 in a relationship...
left her hse at ard 330am... walked all the way home.. lol... took mi onli 1 1/2 hr... nt tt long actually... haha... great workout for mi... reached home, bathe then watch 1/2 an hr of Golf then slp...
posted at Sunday, May 07, 2006... bye...
Friday, May 05, 2006
last night stay at Andy's place... his place same structure as mine... hehe... but his place looks so much neater and tidier than mine... he hav like a e. grand piano, guitar at home lor... like a jamming studio like tt... juz tt short of a set of drums... haha... he stay quite near mi oso... then mayb next time can like go his place n learn music together... cuz he say need guidance n i oso need sum pointers frm him... hehe... he can sing veri wel oso... haha...
wat can i do? kana driven out of the hse by them... nuthin much more i can say rite? they didnt even gv mi a cal or a msg... nvm then... heard frm my sister tt they changin the lock frm home... beta move out all my stuff b4 they do so... otherwise i wld realli b stranded by then...
any1 here gt any bright ideas on wat i can do next? need a permanent place to stay(tts my 1st plan in mind)... see whether if their son died b4 their veri eyes, wld they even regret doin wat they did?
MISSIN YOU.. JUZ YOU
posted at Friday, May 05, 2006... bye...
Thursday, May 04, 2006
had a big time argument n conflict wif my parents ytd... i was in the wrong i think but they didnt seem to understand the plight and situation tt mi and my sis is undergoing... cant say much abt wat the topic is here... incovenient... juz can say its all abt $$ n $$ n $$...
i left my hse at ard 7 plus wanting to go for dinner alone... but then due to the over boredom, i tried looking for a fren nearby to accompany mi... felt so hurt n disappointed in my family... but in the end.. to no avail...
therefore went down to town, as i wil b gg Zouk to club ltr... didnt feel like gg actually but then gg cuz its Shiyin's bdae celebration mah... hehe...in the end... ended up having my own dinner at TAKA...
the whole time ever since i left my house, parents have been calling mi.. but i juz refused to answer... i dun care abt anythin... they juz dun care n bother to even understand wat feelings i had...
dad juz msged mi n said tt i am in deep shit n trouble... wil tt realli scare mi? i dunno... juz felt tt being threatened by own family members is so hurtful n it juz simply sucks... my sis smsed mi oso... sayin tt she didnt like the way they treated us both, but cant b help... a mere 13 yr old gal sayin such things, i was impressed and shocked... she oso said tt mum confiscated the lappy... wel.. there is such thing called LAN shop in this world... pay pay lor... i can afford anyway...
clubbed all the way til Zouk closed... didnt realli enjoyed myself though i did realli try... Shimin did try make mi feel comfortable n beta..(thks dearest fren)...
went for supper aft tt all the way til abt 5.30am i think.. went home in the cab same as Andy(a guy wif abt 75% resembrance with Edison Chen, trust mi it is*winks*)
i reached my hse downstair abt 545 am... didnt go home... went to a nearby block to slp til morning 8.25am as i noe my parents wil be out by then... went home n slp til abt 1245pm then wake up for work... muz go out b4 they return...
tonight wil b workin til abt 1030pm... wun b gg home aft tt i think... shld b stayin out til veri veri late til next morning then go back... i juz hate them now... i dunno y... wat can i do to release this hurt n hatred? i dunno...
received a cal juz now frm a "customer" tt was looking for mi... the moment i answered the phone, the person hung up on mi b4 i cld say anythin... muz b my mum... it nt juz a gut feelings.. i juz noe it...
the onli prob now is how long is this whole issue gg to last... but til it is solved, i wil nv nv wan to see their face again... juz tt i need a place to stay... shld i juz go Angel's hse? her sis dun like it... i dunno lah... any1 can take in 1 refugee of a war? tel mi k?
SO MUCH TROUBLE N SADDNESS AND THE ONLI 1 I WISH TO SEE IS YOU MY DEAREST ANGEL!!! HOPE YOU WILL CAL MI WHEN U READ THIS... MY HEART POUNDS JUZ FOR YOU NOW...
posted at Thursday, May 04, 2006... bye...
Monday, May 01, 2006
been a few days since i last saw her... wil confirm b seeing her tmr... hehe... sending her to sch mah.. haha...
so much trouble up in my mind... but i cant seem to face it or solve it... i hav no exit left... frens ard mi seems so untrustworthy... i cant seem to bring myself to trust ani1 anymore... issit the betrayal is too strong for mi to handle? i dunno...
i realli do mis her alot... her smile, her laughter, her voice, her eyes, nose and cheeks... her charisma, character, angry face n happy face... haha... nuthin much i wish 4.. juz to see her face...
to mi, being wif her doesnt matter tt much as being there for her always is my promise to her... my feelings for her are raging like stormy sea waves, gets stronger and stronger each wave... its deeper than the deepest ocean n definitely higher than the heavens...
YOU ARE ALWAYS HERE IN MY HEART, HOPEFULLY YOU WILL LET MI ALWAYS STAY WITH YOURS!!!
posted at Monday, May 01, 2006... bye...
Marcus Yeo
19/11/1985
Age : 20
Area : Hougang/Paya Lebar
Family
My SeaGull
Friends
Drinking
Clubbing
Playing Piano
Playing Guitar
Liars
Backstabbers
People whu Take Others for Granted
TwO TiMeRs